Final farewells...?

I followed a number of people with cancer. Many of them are now pain free and dancing on the other side. Many of them were so young. very sad. 

One lady spent her time crossing things off her bucket list.  I don't have one. My dream was to see England, I did that.  She also spent her time writing friends and family letters to give to them when she died. This ladies mother still has not read her letter. I thought about this. But decided not to do it.

They all know I love them. I am proud of them.  They are unique and special.

I feel like reading those letters would only make them more sad, so the letter writing would be more for the cancer person than to the people she was giving them to. I could be wrong but that's my thoughts. 

The grandkids

 The grandkids all came to see me. I did NOT want them to come, but I understand why they wanted to see me. 

They are all special and I was glad to see them all together again. It has been  a long time.

Vincent

He can still make me laugh. He not only listens to a different drummer, he listens to a different band. I hope he settles into a calmer pattern and he gets his life in order. He is a good soul.

Grace

She is a mini mommy. She is a good daughter. No matter what she does, she will be a success. She stands up for herself.

She just needs to not pay attention to what other people think or say. Don't worry so much. 

Kayla

Her and Grace make a good fit. She is dependable and has a good heart. She needs to not care what people think or say too. 

Liam

Too kind hearted, too sensitive, too easy. But hopefully he is growing out of that now. He needs to know his feelings are important too. I hope he finds his path. His laugh can make you laugh. 

Joseph

Never worried about Joseph. He knows what he wants and will get it. He can be very thoughtful and he will be a great father. But its his life. He does use people and he feels he is smarter than most people.

That thing he married is another story.  She needs a good tell off. But she gets away with it, he finds no problem with it. She is lucky she has a father in law  who will let her get away with just about  anything, no matter how wrong she is.  He did the same thing with Joseph, to keep him happy.

I love them all...well...not  you know who...but every one else. :D 

Cancer-First week in Sept.

 My medication has increased. I am going on pain patches besides my narc. The medicine was still working buy I am taking it more often. Instead of every six hour doses I am taking it 4 hour doses. So I would take the patch and then the Narc would be if I need more relief.  

Otherwise everything else seems to be the same. I am sure I lost more weight but I have not weighed myself. I still have  a cup of tea in the morning and 3 shakes a day. 

Also, I damaged my big toe 3 months ago and for a few weeks the nail on the toe was half hanging off. It finally came off last night! YAY  I don't have enough problems I had to have that annoying thing bothering my foot!