Wednesday, August 28, 2024

Let's elope? 1968/9

 At one point when Bill and I were dating, he was in a bar one night and the crew in there convinced him to elope with me. 

This is the house I lived in, we lived upstairs and my Aunt, Uncle and cousins lived downstairs. My bedroom was the window above the door.


It was a tiny room with a twin bed, desk and bureau with a closet. 

Sometime during the night, a sound of scratching on the window screen woke me up. There was bill at the window trying to wake me up. I open the window to let him in.  He tells me to get dressed we are going to elope. I said things like he  is crazy, He needs to get out. He is laying in bed while I get dressed trying to get him out. He is a sleep. 

I can not wake him up.  My father is working and my mother asleep.  I am going to get a beating! But he is out and I can not budge him.

I finally have to wake my mother because my father will home in about an hour. For that hour there is nothing for us to  do, but smoke and pace back and forth from the window.  

Finally we peek out and see my fathers car coming down the block, he drives slow...staring at the house. We don't know why he is doing that.

We don't know what my father will do. As he comes in the house and climbs the stairs we are there to meet him and tell him what happen. 

He shakes his head and laughs. Not the reaction we expected. He said he  can't do anything right. We asked him why was he staring at the house. He said there is a ladder leading up to my window outside the house. It seems Billy went into the neighbors yard across the street and stole their ladder.

So, my father went back out and took the ladder down and we just sat  waiting  till  he woke up sometime in the afternoon. 

Of course my father ribbed him about this for a number of years. 

So that was the day I did not elope. 

Friday, August 9, 2024

Dreaming Crazy dreams

 



When I first started taking the Narc, I was having weird dreams, most of them in color. I usually have black and white dreams. 

I had dreams of Marie Curie, I had them about 3 nights in a row. Of all the people to dream about!

In my dreams I was watching how radiation changed things...the color of clothes and it would change hard plastic dolls into rubber ect. I finally said to myself, ok, no more dreams about Marie. 

I did not know she had some Quotes she was famous for. I looked at them and decided this was my favorite quote of hers.

" Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more so that we may fear less."

I did have other weird dreams, I was in a very small shop. I want to say it was a tea shop. It was in rubble, like damaged in a war or some disaster.  Broken cups and saucers, pottery. Trying to clear it out. I don't want to do it, but I have to start somewhere.

Another dream, I went to see my friend Cheryl. She was going to a play and I  was wishing her a good time on her trip to the city to see the play. But then I found out I was going to see the play too.And then I found out I was going to be in the play with all them! I was excited and upset at the same time, I can't act, I don't think I  can even memorize lines! I don't have many lines, thankgoodess. We are all on the train heading for the city.

I am still adjusting my medication, I am not taking so much narco right now, so my dreams have not been too weird and most I can't remember them on waking, I just know I was dreaming. 


Cancer-first week in August

 The cancer is progressing. I am now taking a Narc.  It helps. I like to sleep, because nothing hurts when I am asleep. 

  Grace surprised me by staying here for while and Vincent might be here the end of the month. Liam makes little visits too.

I only eat liquids now. I don't even want to make the effort to eat eggs. So I have nutritional drinks, ice cream,  pudding.

All in all I am feeling ok and still can take of my self.